Monday, July 28, 2008


i'm at work. i'm tired. when my boss isn't here, i take naps sometimes. she's here, but i tried to take one anyway. i got too scared, it didn't happen.

also, i think i signed something that said they can always see what i'm doing on the internet. so let's hope they don't see this. my boss called me efficient today though, so. i think this is excusable, i'm still efficient.
i tried to save something fifteen minutes ago. guess it didn't take. pretty ticked. why i am blogging instead of working. work doesn't deserve me. yes, i am blaming the lack of save on everything and everyone but myself.

in other news. i have suspicions my brother is homeless. like most young men he comes over to the house weekly or bi-weekly to do his laundry. but, yesterday when he was over he also shaved and showered. my mom suspected it was because he has a girlfriend. if this hypothesis is in fact correct, then i would be led to suspect that his girlfriend is also homeless.

i also found out something new that brings me joy. although, im not sure it will ever bring me joy again due to its rarity in nature. tiny asian girls in matching pink shirts with giant frog faces on them.

oui oui,

Saturday, July 26, 2008

jessica is not my roomate. and other life ruining incidents.

jessica is not my roomate.
i am tired. really tired.
i have to go to the bathroom. but am too tired to get up and do so.
i would rather be a character from a children's book than myself.
my dad talks through every t.v. show i love.
they do not have psych ondemand.
i finally got up to go to the bathroom but my mom was in there.
my dog doesn't love me anymore.
the new spaghetti salad from hillers is made out of angelhair pasta. which i detest. (fat noodles, right jamar?)

au revoir,

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

so. maybe i'm not on death's doorstep.

don't worry jamar. :) i'm fine.
things aren't peachy keen right now. i'm still a little off. but really maybe not as life altering as originally anticipated.

in other news.

more things that bring me joy:
*home alone every day before christmas (yes, jessica, on point with both of these)
*eminem songs
*bright smiles

today at work we had LGBT training. which is always a treat. i met a man named victor, (who reminded me how much joy bright smiles give me) he was rather enchanting. but he was abused by his former partner. booo.
i almost cried during training. but, that's no surprise.

all my children was mildly entertaining today, although i was in a meeting and missed half of it.
:( i am rather looking forward to wipeout tonight! phil inspires me in his crippled state. his t.v. choices are impecable.

peace up, a-town down,

Monday, July 21, 2008

so much for joy....

life moves fast. and one day you find joy in everything, whereas the next, you find it in absolutely nothing.

absolutely nothing.

“Aren’t all these notes the senseless writhings of a man who won’t accept the fact that there is nothing we can do with suffering except to suffer it? Who still thinks there is some device (if only he could find it) which will make pain not to be pain. It doesn’t really matter whether you grip the arms of the dentist’s chair or let your hands lie in your lap. The drill drills on.”
-C.S. Lewis, A Grief Observed

i don't know what i'm doing. i don't know where i am.

sorry so glum,

Sunday, July 20, 2008


so i have decided to bless the world by continuing my blog. i have found that my blog brings joy to millions of (or approximately six) people. so because i am so accomodating, i will continue 'a dingo ate your baby mate!' as 'from my own head.' 'from my own head' comes from the fact that when i say an acutely clever or generally moronic statement people often ask, 'where'd you get that from?' to which i most positively answer 'from my own head.' enjoy party peoples!

some things that bring me joy, that i think should bring you joy as well:

1) my blog
2) people using weird voices
3) well-behaved children
4) people that try really hard to help out
5) good conversationalists... or at least cheery ones
6) parents and children in harmony (shut up, i know it's cheezy haha)
7) open body language and genuine smiles given to total weirdos
8) the new guy at barnes n' noble starbucks (numbers 2, 4, and 5)

also. i have observed that people named candy/candi/candie are generally pleasant in nature.

that is all.

keepin it real,